I'm hoping no one reads this anymore. I just need to get all this garbage out of my head. Why do people treat each other this way? I am not a mean, rude, or spiteful person. I know in my past I have been not so nice, and not so caring, but I thought I had made my peace with that part of my life and that things were better. You give of yourself knowing what the the Good Lord did and how it should be. Why is it that when you truly are this way, it is the most difficult? I find peace in knowing I do the right things for others and it makes me smile to put a smile on someone else's face. Almost NO ONE goes out of their way to be a loving, caring human being anymore. I know I CANNOT become someone who uses others or puts themself above all else. I have never felt that being selfish and egotistical is the way to be successful in life. I would have so much hurt and guilt for treating people poorly. But why do I still get so hurt and angry when people try to wrong me? I guess that strength comes in time... I just get so frustrated! Don't EVER act like you are doing me a favor when, in reality, the favor benefits you more than me. I am so flippin tired of people like this.